— Omar Khayyam
— Omar Khayyam
Things I’m giving up for lent:
- being thirsty (metaphorically, of course)
- beating myself up over my mistakes (again, metaphorically)
- talking about how single I am
- holding grudges
- dismissing compliments I receive
- Candy Crush
Let’s be better and get closer to God, y’all
I hate admitting that I’m having a bad day, but I’m having a bad day.
Shallow breathing. Jesus, my heart’s rhythm is uncontrollable. Nerves.
We just don’t have the same values and that’s okay.
But is it really okay? At first I felt frozen. I thought I was past this point in my life but I thought wrong. It happens pretty frequently. For the first time in a couple months my mind was blank but not the way I wanted and prayed for.
The dizzying dance of my innermost thoughts halted suddenly and I was left with only tears dripping off my cheeks. I felt like I was 12 again.
And yet, after letting the tears fall, after laying on my cheap futon, after the eye swelling that was the remnants of an emotional purge all I could say was, “we differ in values”. And I fully believe it. I think.
I’m not mad and I should be. I’m disheartened. I don’t feel angry and I don’t know why. I do feel empty. And I don’t wish bad things upon them, I only pray that my plans work out.
I’m just out of place inside of my thoughts. My heart hurts a little but I’m sure that will pass. I want to tell them it’s okay but it’s not okay. I want to tell them not to worry but I wish they would. I want some sort of regret that last because it would show that I wasn’t wrong when I trusted them.
I hate being wrong but I hate being cryptic more. So instead I say nothing.
Because it’s not okay. I’m not okay.
We in America take advantage of the power of social networking, specifically twitter and facebook. We want to share every moment of are life like what we ate for lunch and when are parents piss us off but then when real social justice issues arise we have those who complain, who shut down, who cover their ears because the conflict isn’t “helpful” in their opinion.
Twitter is what helped alert the world of revolutions and mistreatment of people in other parts of the world. Social networking exposes injustices when some governments kill people to hide them.
So if you are upset that I am expressing my opinion, instead of subtweeting me just unfollow for awhile. But if you just want to complain, realize that I will continue the voicing of my opinion. I will continue the conversation. These injustices won’t go away because you choose not to participate.